Tarot, tears and difficult days.
Life has been tough recently. The everyday stresses of insecure housing, home educating four children, and both of us working long hours just mounted and spiralled out of control. My husband and I lost sight of the fact that we are stronger together.
In times like this I have three main helpers;
#1 Good friends I can message and say "Life is a little crap right now"
#2 Old books I love, that I can sink into as if stepping into another world (try not to judge but "Twilight" is perfect for this)
#3 And my Tarot pack.
I love my Tarot in times like this. Instead of getting caught up in the maze of fear which my own mind can create the tarot offers an honest, unbiased opinion.
I tend to use it conversationally- especially when trying to understand what my husband is really thinking when we are both lost in the exhaustion of our lives, words are shouted and emotions twisted into shapes that don't reflect what we really feel.
I do a simple spread- three cards for me, three cards for him (no- I won't be sharing his spread that doesn't seem fair!) and one card for "I need to remember this. "
I headed into my caravan. Lost, exhausted, and really not able to understand why we were in this state It is so much easier to understand other people's marriages that my own!
My husbands spread spoke of exhaustion, stress and worry.
Mine reminded me (High Priestess) that I had shut of my emotions from him. Now I am particularly good at doing this- and I realised he was probably finding it very difficult to "read" me or understand what was happening.
It told me not to throw away the "baby with the bathwater" (8 of cups) to try and get this in proportion. It might feel like an unlovable situation- but it was very focused in the moment. If I could get a sense of proportion, the bigger picture, then I would start t