I am not writing this for sympathy, the situation is past and resolved, I am writing because it may help someone else work it out a little quicker than me. It is roughly a year ago now that my husband sat me down for a little chat. He wanted to tell me he was leaving because; there was a long list of reasons. All abut me, all personal and none nice. I literally felt the earth fall from under me. I have had many difficulties with my parents, and now my husband too was rejecting me. Surely this was proof positive, and even with a little relief, that it actually was all my fault. I decided to survive for my children. My plan was simple. Work hard, pay for their education, survive until the yo

A couple of weeks a go I attended a workshop teaching me to carry out a Soul retrieval. (Part of a much longer year long course) This involves finding a part of the soul that was lost due to trauma or shock. Tracing the energy back to its source, and finding where in the body the energy is blocked. It is a strange experience with stones, drum, rattle, journeying & pendulum. This is really diving deep into the shadow realms, to forgotten memories, lost ties, and often past lives, The other day a client came to me for a tarot reading, and her question was perfect for a soul retrieval. She felt something from her past was blocking her enjoyment of her life. She wanted me to identify what it w

Relationship readings are hard because; They involve at least two people. People are usually looking for a clear answer. And they usually know what they want to hear. About eight years ago I did a relationship reading for my marriage, and the cards were 100% clear – headed for divorce. (tower, 3 swords, 5 cups) Yet I am still happily married to my husband. The reading highlighted clear flaws in our marriage (not taking time out for each other, both lost in our own exhaustion & not acknowledging the others stress) Looking at the reading shocked me, yet felt oddly familiar. Something I knew deep down, but didn’t want to face, was bought firmly into focus. I decided to always make my husband a

Meditation Pick a card you love. A card that helps you to feel more at ease, more confident, more hopeful. Use this card to meditate on. (3 of wands is always a good choice...) This helps in two clear ways; Meditation is a fantastic way to help ease stress. The card sinks into your unconscious, helping you to achieve a more positive state of mind. Planning It is very easy to get caught in a panic mode, leading to either over work, or total procrastination. And whatever you are doing, there is a lingering, nagging, doubt. Your stress is still there. So get your tarot cards out. Use them as a planning tool. You may decide to plan something unrelated to your stress ( a holiday, craft project, g

I held my first “Blended” shaman’s group today . My time learning the Norse traditions in Orkney was completely transformational. However – personally I was in a very bad place. A large part of my time in Orkney was personal transformation. I had no desire to teach, heal, or share what I was learning with anyone else. In time I came to use the tarot as a transformational tool for others. Helping them, inspiring them, supporting them through the tool of Tarot. Then I was “encouraged” to share my knowledge of Norse shamanism by teaching the techniques, and holding a regular circle. This group still continues, much shaped by the individuals. Growing, evolving. I was happy with the balance; a Ta

How my Tarot understanding deepens, as my shaman training goes further… I have been a Shaman guide (leading others on their journey) for several years, and am now undertaking some training with Evelyn Brodie to become a Shaman Healer. So much of what I have experienced this weekend resonates with Tarot, especially; “Because human beings remember with neurons, we are disposed to see more of what we have already seen, hear anew what we have heard most often, think just what we have always thought.” “The neural past interferes with the present. Experience methodically rewires the brain, and the nature of what it has seen dictates what it can see” (A General Theory of Love) In other words; if yo

Reflections on my shaman training. It was the most empowering, yet also soul naked experience; Ten students, all with some energetic or shaman experience behind them, jumping into the void of offering shamanic healing to each other. After the process is demonstrated, we split into pairs and work. The room is filled with soft whisperings, tears, gentle voices, escaped gasps, rattling, drumming, smudging. It is exhilarating to be energy working in this concentrated way. As I work I catch a glimpse of the other pairs, and can reflect on what I am doing in the mirror of their work. Because to be a Shaman is to work from the soul, and we are ten individuals each using the tools and techniques sl

A simple Spread I often think Tarot can get over complicated. I’d like to share with you a simple technique I use when life gets chaotic, confusing and overwhelming. When life is really difficult I find it hard to use detailed spreads for myself. My mind gets over focused on either the hope, or difficulties, and I lose perspective and clarity. I also don’t like to be too predictive with my spreads at this time. If I am in a negative spiral any small issue in the cards can catch in my mind and become over blown. That is why I head to another tarot professional if I want clear and detailed advice when life is difficult. I do however use my balance spread, daily, when life is difficult. It is